Within my final project for the Foundation Course for Art & Design with the the focus on surface design at the London College of Communication. I was especially interested in Mental Health. I wanted to explore the complexity of mental states – the scientific as well as the personal, emotional side. I tried to reflect my own psycological behaviour as well as the psyche of the people around me which are dealing with mental issues. I did my research in different areas and I wanted to go deeper into the topic of writing and typography within this project. I wrote down my thoughts and also transformed some into poems and processed my ideas in connection with textiles. As I focused mainly on schizophrenia I felt I needed to put those thoughts on fabric in a way many people with mental problems did. Through interminable handcrafts you get to reflect yourself and the repetition of the processes can be a form of meditation, exhausting but a way of sorting thoughts.The docotors coat and the nightgown are reflecting the condition and the circumstances to which schizophrenia can lead. The fight for a normal life and the hard way to get that back which leads through medication, clinics and endless thoughts. The red thread on the pure white fabric is a symbol for these confusing thoughts, the paranoia, the confusion of which of these thoughts are real and which are an illusion from your mind.This confusion of thoughts resulted in a poem I wrote for the final piece, the doctors coat, which reflects the complexity of the mind and which is running down the coat like blood rushes through veins.